Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Not Godly enough?

Last Sunday night, I sang in the choir at church. I have to say it was really fun! It definitely was a lot more fun than I thought it would be. Kind of nerve-wracking, but the joy I felt after singing those songs made me want to actually join the choir! Then I realized two things, 1. I work at night, therefore I cannot go to practices and 2. Am I right with God?

Am I Godly enough?

No, I'm not. I never will be, I don't think. I know that as a Christian I am supposed to give God 10% of EVERYTHING in my life but I don't. I can barely afford to give Him 10% of my paycheck. I am home most of the day, right now, but I still don't give God 10% of my time. Sure, I pray over my food and I try to live a good life but I know I fall short of His standards of me. He knows everything I can be and everything I will be but am I smart enough to listen to Him? Especially when I am praying whole heartily about something...do I stop to listen to see if He has answered me? I always ask God to give me a sign so blatant, so obvious that it will literally hit me on the head or be shown right in front of my eyes. The truth about this is, I shouldn't ask God to do that; I should take time during my day to be with God, read His word, get to know Him and then the answers will come.

That is what this post is really about. A life change so to speak. I want to vow, try my hardest, promise (whatever the right words are) to give God 10% of my day..talk to Him in the shower, at work, while cooking, doing chores, and during fun outings. I don't just want to ask for His help, I want to be so comfortable with God that I yell at Him when I am angry and cry and laugh with Him when I'm happy! I love God and I am so in love with Jesus that I do not care who knows it! But I am weak. And I know that I will fail, some of the time at least. That is okay. God knows my heart, He knows that I love Him and how serious I am and I know that He loves me all the same! :)

Thanks God, you're the Best. Savior. Master. Father. Thank you for loving me so much that you gave up your son.

To my audience (if I have one), I encourage you to take the same type of vow to God. Start with your time- give him 10% or more.

Goodnight, Sweetheart.

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